It Is By Grace You Have Been Saved.

Because of the great love with which He loved us...by Grace you have been saved. It is by grace that I have been saved. By grace, only. My heart cannot fathom a love that is freely given. It has overlooked the prolific downpour of "I love you, come be with me as you are" from… Continue reading It Is By Grace You Have Been Saved.

Oh God, I want to go home.

She sits in her room and wants to meet the One her heart longs for. But she knows on Monday she will wake up, put on her clothes, walk to her car, and drive to the office filled with people who care about money and how witty they sound. Her heart is going to break… Continue reading Oh God, I want to go home.

(Romans 7:15-20) Paul and Me

How do I even hope to live in a "manner worthy of the Gospel of Christ?" My ways are so naturally decrepit and self-seeking. I do what I do not want to do. I sin everyday and more yet. Vanity rules my mornings. The pride of life rules the evenings. And I come back to… Continue reading (Romans 7:15-20) Paul and Me

A Cool Towel on Christmas Morning

This morning of the 25th, I wake up with a slight cringe and feel that hollow in my chest again. Like an automaton, I pick up my iPhone and scroll through vapid posts of gel nails and Jimmy Fallon talk show memes the same way one would pop a pill. Sufficiently distracted from whatever inner… Continue reading A Cool Towel on Christmas Morning

A Toddler Crying Becomes an Adult, Crying.

I have one distinct snapshot of my earliest memory. One that foretold what the rest of my internal and relational reality would look like. I'm throwing a tantrum on the floor of a daycare, pointing at a couple girls and a boy who are playing together. For some reason, they do not include me. They… Continue reading A Toddler Crying Becomes an Adult, Crying.

Do I have to go out, Father? Tell me.

What damage am I doing when I say "no" to meeting people? If I were normal and didn't have a philosophical meltdown every time I made a decision, I would just say "no, don't feel like it", and that would be that. But rather, I am a sensitive and on-edge moral philosopher of a Christian… Continue reading Do I have to go out, Father? Tell me.